Awakening or awakened?

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Awakening or awakened?

The story of my spiritual awakening

A couple of months ago, a fellow coach and dear friend of mine and I were discussing the topic of spiritual awakening. My friend was claiming that we are all awakened, no matter where we are on our journey of personal development. I argued that, but for some enlightened souls that are awakened, at peace and totally aligned with the grand scheme of things, the rest of us still struggle with control issues, worry, anger, expectations etc. Therefore we are not fully awakened and awakening needs to take place.

My blog on the “death” of expectations and the “birth” of unconditional love, illustrating the process of spiritual awakening through coaching, had me thinking of the beginning of my awakening journey. The moment when I started “seeing” past my conditioning. The moment when I started seeing a small part of the truth, the truth shook me to the core as long held beliefs started to tumble down one after the other.

Here’s how it all started:

The health problems

Having suffered from health problems from the age of 25, ten years later I was at my wits end. The rational, cartesian attorney, who only believed in science and in the tangible, my old self that is, was so desperate to get well that I decided to consult an energy healer. She later became the person who taught me or, to be more accurate, reminded me of my ability to sense energy and channel. At the end of the training she told me that I had to learn how to practice reiki. I had never heard of reiki before. However, after the mind-blowing experiences during the channeling training, I wasn’t skeptical of alternative methods that promote healing any more. 

Reiki as the first step to awakening

So, I found a reiki master, who I still consider as one of my spiritual teachers along with other people I met in person or whose books I read, and had my first reiki training and attunement. She is the one who prompted me to ask myself whether I was awakening or already awakened. I had spent all my life living on the edge, being a true daredevil. I was afraid of nothing or so I thought. From bungee jumping to backcountry skiing, the proud owner of two motorcycles, a racing one and a dirt bike, I would do any stunt on a dare. I was fearless. 

Fear as my driving force

During the weekend of my first reiki training which was also a personal development workshop, I made an earth shuttering discovery about myself. The reiki master asked each of us what we were most afraid of. I heard many answers before I could give mine; illness, death, unemployment, poverty, loneliness and many more. When it was my turn to reply I said “fear”. The reiki master insisted “Yes, we are talking about fear. Which fear scares you the most?”. “Fear” I replied. “I am afraid of fear itself!”. For the first time in my life I “saw” my fear. I realized that everything I had done, the stunts, my academic and professional accomplishments, everything I did was out of fear or, to be more precise, to hide my fear from myself. 

The acknowledgement of my fear was the first of a series of insights that kickstarted my awakening or the beginning of being awakened . Nonetheless, I had never felt awakened. I still don’t. I keep “seeing” new things and working on old survival mechanisms as they become visible to me one by one. 

Knowledge becoming experience

For me, many ideas linger in my head before the finally sink in and become experiences. This is exactly what happened with my friend’s claim that we are all already awakened. You can read my blog “When the student is ready...” to understand what I mean.

While I was writing about how and when my awakening started, I thought of my childhood. I remembered that everything that I could see after my awakening, I already saw and knew when I was a child. Everything that I started “discovering”, I intuitively knew before. It was the conditioning I underwent because of my desire to fit in with my family and with mainstream society that blindsided me. The word discover says it all. It was already there but I had not uncovered it. 

Everything lies within

As a young child, I could see and feel energy. As a young child, I could see the truth, I could see through people and situations. In my head, I would challenge long held conventional beliefs and see universal truths. I knew… I was awakened…

The question of awakening or awakened is much clearer for me. I now believe that my friend and I were both right. We are born awakened but most of us “go back to sleep” either by choice or by conditioning or both. We don’t have to look elsewhere for the truth. It’s already inside us. Nevertheless, awakening needs to take place to be able to access the truth again.

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Comments (4)

  1. Viviana

    This! WOW!
    Lately, I have been thinking a lot about how and when I started to feel a bit more “awakened” or “connected”. Sometimes it can be a long and painful process. So, the thought of having to die, to then reincarnating again, to then “forgetting” it all again, makes it a bit like: “do I really want to go there again? ?“… let’s hope in the next life the veil is not as think and heavy!

    1. I hope the same thing for me too! ?

  2. Reda

    Good blog post. I definitely appreciate this website.
    Keep writing!

    1. Thank you!

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